I miss him, god how I miss him. Every inch of his beautiful body. It's horrible being without Benny, he is everyhting to me and I need him here. So sorry he is hurting, just three more nights of shitness to get through then that is that.

I want people to understand just how much I love him, how much I want him and how much I need him. My life would be incomplete without benny. He's amazing and I want to be with him forevah.

Ben, when you read this I want you to know that I love you, worship you and coild never live without you, these last few nights have beeen painful, I need you to lay against you. Need to hold you, to touch you to love you. You are amazing, my everything.
xx