There's a difference between being grumpy/pissed off and being heartbrokenly upset. I'm sick of being made to feel like this, fair enough I started it, my fault, I apologise and it's still my fault. I can't win. I wish life was straight forward, simple, fun, tolerable. I need to get out of this stupid house I need to get somewhere where there are nice people that like me, who can take a joke.
I love him but I shouldn't have to feel like this, I shouldn't feel this shitty. God I hope the good times pick up a bit before the bad times begin to outweigh them. Don't know what I'd do without him, I'd probably be happier logically but I am not logical. I have no common sense. Apparently.
Fucking hell, what should I do.
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